For over a year now, Geoff has been telling me that he's felt 'called' to adopt a child. I have had such a difficult time with this. Honestly, I'm not an amazing mother. I lose my patience. I look forward to bed time. I sometimes will the days away. I long for date nights and shopping by myself. I've had several friends that have had babies recently, and while being very excited and happy for them, I'm alternately relieved that it isn't me, and glad to have 'those years' behind me. Until recently.
In doing the study of the book of Daniel by Beth Moore, I've come to see God answer the ferverent prayers of Sharach, Meshach, and Abednego, by speaking to DANIEL. He didn't tell them directly. He answered their prayers for revealing truth to Daniel. I've been waiting for God to 'tell' ME that we should adopt a child. I've been listening to hear 'the call'...only to have Geoff continue to reiterate to me that he's feeling disobedient to God for not following through with what he feels is a calling from the Holy Spirit. Since surrending my own will and desires completely over to God, I finally have peace about the possibility of raising another child. I'm even....get this.....a little giddy at the prospect.
Bulgaria.
That's the country we're looking into adopting from. I know it's going to be difficult. Even brutal some days. Which is why I'm writing this. To remind myself (and maybe you'll even remind me some days, too) That He works all things out for good. According to His will and purpose.
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